"I forgot the colour of your eyes"

said a wistful girl's status today, and it reminded me of something I wrote one lonely, longing night.

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I wonder what it will be like

the moment I stop missing you

if it ever comes

will it wash over me all at once

like a tidal wave surging towards the shore

carelessly erasing all the patterns in the sand

or will it creep up slowly

like the way I grew to love you?

perhaps I'll be eating my breakfast one day

and won't remember the way you like your eggs

or I'll stand in front of the mirror

and realise I've forgotten the colour of your eyes

maybe I'll wake up one morning

and you won't be the first thing on my mind

I’ll sit down to write you a letter

And the words won’t spill out of my heart onto paper like they always do

Maybe I’ll be walking along, singing

And I won’t hear your voice echoing along

Perhaps for a second, my hands will feel strangely empty

but I'll shake off the winter chill

and cling to the warmth of new memories

I wonder

will pieces of you drift away slowly

lost

as the spaces between are filled with people and places

that I don't even know exist yet?

but most of all, I wonder what it will be like

the moment you stop missing me.

DIY Wrapped Crystal Necklace

I ordered some pendants off eBay the other week, and they finally arrived yesterday. Today was a bit of a DIY Day, so I made some presents for some of my lovely friends and siblings. The necklaces were so simple to make, and since we had everything except the pendants already, they only cost about 35c each!

What You Need:

• Wire cutters
• pliers (jewellery pliers are best but I couldn't find mine)
• "crystal" pendants (or stones, etc.)
• chain (I just used old necklaces)
• wire

All you need to do is wrap the wire around the pendant a few times, folding over the sharp edges at the start and finish with your pliers, and pop your creation on a chain! I was lucky because these ones came with a pre-attached finding to put it on a necklace, but if they don't, I'm sure it wouldn't be too hard to end the wire in a loop instead. It's too easy, really!

 

Don't they look so pretty? 

I also made a dream catcher for another friend... Maybe a tutorial another time, but once again, they are almost too simple to bother! I just make it up as I go along.

After work yesterday, Mum and I paid a visit to an op shop, so I could find a birthday present for my sister. No luck in that department (I ended up making her one of those necklaces instead), but I did come out with two brand new Factorie black t-shirts, a black beaded dress and a faux leather jacket, all $2 each. Not bad for a quick stop, ay?

Right now I'm looking at missionary care package and letter ideas, and getting a teensy bit too excited... I wish the best friend would just hurry up and go, so we can both start our new adventures :) I hope that they bring us closer together, but if the Lord has other things in store for both of us, that's okay, too. I know that He loves us both so much, more than we could possibly love each other right now. That's enough for me to have the faith to just let him go. I used to think that it meant (or would seem?) that I didn't love him as much as other girls who wait for a missionary, but I've learned that it's not true. Not waiting has been a pretty hard decision (as has not going on a mission right now!), but it's one we made before we even started dating (I love that he always wants the best for me), so that has helped a lot. I also used to worry that people would just assume that we were waiting for each other anyway, and not bother dating or anything, but I've come to realise that if a guy doesn't bother getting to know me enough to understand, or to try to win my heart despite this, then he ain't worth it, anyway. I don't have much time to focus on boys, anyway; I just need to focus on getting through uni (I have a feeling it will be pretty intense these next two years) and bettering myself, but I'm willing to embrace whatever opportunities in love and life come my way. For the first time in a while, I don't just feel excited for my best friend and his mission; I am excited for myself, and what challenges and triumphs the Lord has planned for me. It's been too long since I let myself see how amazing I can be.

Little Reasons to Smile

Alma 60:34

He leaves us nice little messages in the middle of the war chapters, just like He always gives us little reasons to smile in the hardest of times, if we look for them. :)

I am everyone and no one.

Tell me your troubles and I'll silence my own
Sweep out your skeletons and I'll hide my bones

Sing of your sorrows and I'll drown my melody
Dig up your doubts and I'll bury mine underneath

Write out your woes and I'll cross out my words
Pour out your pain and I'll swallow my hurt

Drag out your demons and I'll ignore all of mine

Weep of your worries and I'll pretend that I'm fine

Bare all your burdens, till there's nothing left to say
Tell me your troubles, and I'll slip away.

Twenty million falling stars in the sky, are they afraid of heights?

How Did I Find You? - The Canyons ft Jason Reeves

I ask myself this almost every day, but now time is just moving too fast and I don't know how to keep up.

Photos.

1. Christmas.

2. Lavender jeans by Cotton On, watch from eBay and bracelets from Equip... Always wear your seatbelt, kids.

3. YSA convention with the lovelies.

4. YSA convention with my lovely.

5. He asked me to the NYE ball over the PA system -.-

6. Being an EFY (Especially For Youth - church camp) counsellor was one of the best things I've ever done.

7. EFY selfies.

8. Relevant.

9. Beautiful, peaceful Chinese gardens.

10. Never too old for playgrounds.

11. Pegasus unicorn! 

12. gaejdlsklagkd;agd <3

13. Messy hair, don't care.

14. Pink converse for $4, and floral jeans for $2 at the op shop.

15-17. Been a-crafting a lot lately, to keep my mind off things. My favourite is the jewellery hanger my Dad and I made today :)

18. Family tree jewellery frame ($1.50) to use as a jewellery stand, sandals (50c) and brown leather boots (50c)... more thrifting.

19. This kid... 

This post sounds so... deflated. 

you.

Your fingers dance across a black and white stage

Softly, shy

But strong enough to carry my heart away with you

I long to find

That world you’re lost in

So I close my eyes

And breathe in your song

Your fears, your faith

Your doubts, your dreams

Your heartaches, your hopes

They wash over me in waves

That break only when they reach

 The very centre of my soul

All at once, I realise

Your best kept secret

Is who you really are

And I’d give anything to know that.

I'm a daughter of God, & I'm holding on to virtue.

Jenny Phillips - Virtue.

 I've been reading article after article about love and marriage and virtue on lds.org. At first I just wanted to clarify something, and then I couldn't stop; there were just too many good links. It's like Youtube surfing, Mormon-style. Nothing is getting in the way of my hopes and dreams of Happily Ever After. Nothing. I'm so blessed to have a best friend (or boyfriend, if you like) who respects me and has the same goals, in terms of marriage and purity. I don't know what the future holds for either of us, but I know that when we meet again, I will look him in the eye, no regrets. Except perhaps not appreciating him enough. But that's something I can work on now. 

On Wednesday, I took the day off uni to accompany the best friend to the dentist, to have his extra wisdom tooth removed for his mission. Because he was such a brave boy, I surprised him with a cuggly teddy bear, some L&P and some mushy food like Le Rice and Up & Go. Apart from the pain that ensued when the anaesthetic wore off, we had such a wonderful day. The tooth extraction ordeal was finished by 10.30, so we had the rest of the day to spend together. We went shopping with his family (where we bought me a new jumper and three dresses! D:); watched the first two episodes of The Mentalist, Season 5; blew bubbles with his little sister, though the wind blew more than we could; invented our own rugby game; made a video diary and video messages for a friend in America; and had a delightful little pickernick at the Temple before Institute (religion class).

Anyways, I haven't done an outfit post in a while, so I'll just grab some more pics off my Instagram (sariah_x). 

Valleygirl jeans, thrifted shirt, Rubi loafers, Equip necklace and Big W cuff bracelet.

 I wore this on my first day back of uni after our midsemester break, which went far too quickly! It was one of those outfits that I just felt really good in, and didn't need to keep adjusting throughout the day!

Thrifted Temt skirt/dress, gifted Target shirt, Rubi boots, Equip rings and necklace, Big W bracelet.

I turned this dress into a skirt, since it was too short as it was. I adore the soft colours and the pretty floral print, and I'm loving my new boots! 

Kmart t-shirt, JayJays jacket, thirfted Converse hi-tops.

I had a presentation in Sociology of Youth and Childhood this week, so I decided to wear my 'Forever Young' t-shirt and my Converse ultra hi-tops, which I bought secondhand for $4 years ago but have hardly ever dug out of the closet!

Factorie jumper, Cocolatte dress.

The jumper the best friend and I bought on Wednesday. I know it's coming into warmer weather, but it was only because it's American and so is he. And it was $5, down from $50 so I think it was just meant to be. The dress, though you can't see it very well, has light grey and white stripes, and was also $5... which is why I bought three (including one in plain grey, and one pink-and-white-striped).

Well, I've just started reading Agatha Christie's Poirot books, and I want to finish the one I've started and get enough sleep for General Conference tomorrow.  By some small miracle, I have the day off work, so I can attend the Saturday sessions at our chapel. I have so many things to work on, and so many areas I need guidance; I can't wait!